Sing-Daughter of Zion!

I wrote this post a year ago, so will publish it now...finally

¹⁴ 

Sing, Daughter Zion;

    shout aloud, Israel!
Be glad and rejoice with all your heart,
    Daughter Jerusalem!
¹⁵ The Lord has taken away your punishment,
    he has turned back your enemy.
The Lord, the King of Israel, is with you;
    never again will you fear any harm.
¹⁶ On that day
    they will say to Jerusalem,
“Do not fear, Zion;
    do not let your hands hang limp.
¹⁷ The Lord your God is with you,
    the Mighty Warrior who saves.
He will take great delight in you;
    in his love he will no longer rebuke you,
    but will rejoice over you with singing.”

¹⁸ “I will remove from you
    all who mourn over the loss of your appointed festivals,
    which is a burden and reproach for you.
¹⁹ At that time I will deal
    with all who oppressed you.
I will rescue the lame;
    I will gather the exiles.
I will give them praise and honor
    in every land where they have suffered shame.
²⁰ At that time I will gather you;
    at that time I will bring you home.
I will give you honor and praise
    among all the peoples of the earth
when I restore your fortunes^[a]
    before your very eyes,”
says the Lord.

Zephaniah 3:14-20

                           It has been a whole year...
                                                               since my arrest.

  By dates ---the year is here, this past weekend-although it happened on a Sabbath...March 31st, 2012.

Diary: 2013

Sunday the 31st:
I was up last night, hard to sleep the whole night. So from being tired this morning, that allowed me to sleep in-past the time of the actual arrest.  Then hubby cooked me a breakfast, which was not as good as last years-but still ok.  He actually forgot what today 'was'.  I think if he would have remembered, perhaps we would have left the house early just to not be here-- with the memory.

This past year, has been a HUGE learning experience for me.  To begin with, myself and my family were exiled from a church that I use to attend.  Many who attend there, do not even know what all really happened, what all was really said by some from there-- to myself and my family.  Most important GOD/YHWH heard all and knows all. I will not argue this with anyone, so if your reading this, and want to fight with me about it-forget it.  I am past trying to work with anyone there.  I have kicked the dust off from my feet and moved on.

So that is it for that.

 Life is too short. There are too many people out in the world who do not know the LORD YESHUA as their savior, who live with out basic needs, for me to stay behind and fight with people--a group--- that do not as a usual, even reach out to others on the mission field 

Mission work? I have worked at that for years, 20 years actually---even with the leadership of a church opposing my efforts.  I sat before the board of elders-I will never forget that-and was accused of not following the LORD, not doing HIS will all because they did not agree with me.  Told me that the old testament scriptures I was sharing with them, were "not for today".  really?    Another reason for no support: they did not see anyone getting saved.  Really?  I am a seed planter.  I know that, I accept that, and know that I will not see the harvest for the most part.  It is amazing that people think you will plant the seed, water it and then sit there and watch for the harvest.  It does not always work that way.  I know that.

Scott and I attended this 'church' for over 29 years, (our second child, a son, was 6 weeks old when we began to attend there) --(minus about 5 years in the middle of that time where we left after a church split) and thus I can say I do know how things were. We were there in the 'beginning'.   That is a long time to commit to  someplace, even with our differences with some people.  The lies that was told about me, GOD/YHWH knows all.  I give it to HIM.

I moved on.
Now to finish healing.....

the air plane (yes with propellars!) from Portland to Eugene!

April 1st:
Monday, I flew out to a conference in Eugene Oregon.

I believe this is Mt Hood,  (I was told on the plane) How tall that mountain stands to be well above the clouds like this...

Hermine and myself...

 I was involved with a summit on the persecution of midwives across the nation.  This was an all day pre-conference event hosted by Midwifery Today- sponsored by Midwifery today and Human Rights in Childbirth (HRiC). Hermine Hayes-Klein who put on the Human Rights in Childbirth Conference in the Hague 2012, led the discussion.


  This is also my first Midwifery Today conference.

I arrived, and that evening went to dinner with about 25-30 other people, some attorneys, some persecuted midwives or birth workers, and some who were here to support us all. We ate at a Tia restaurant.

After a good meal, we returned to the hotel, and I turned in for the night.  It was about 10-11 pm out here, but back home---and for my internal clock-it was 1-2 am!

I had NO idea how this day---would effect me, this pre-conference summit, for human rights about birth.  I was crying, more than I have in a long time.

The day of my arrest, I cried all day, then I did not cry much at all until I began to attend a (new to us) fellowship of believers, different from the church who disowned me the day I was arrested.  The first few times we were at this fellowship, I sat and cried.  A lot-it felt like.  Sometimes I just would walk away to another room and sit, because I was crying so...hurtful tears, mourning tears, and healing tears. I was accepted at this new 'fellowship' but I still needed healing.  That would take months....

Since then, I have not cried much at all. And this day of the Summit-the healing began.  No longer judged for being arrested, just given strength in return for standing up for the rights of others-

When I was arrested, the bail bonds man gave us small hand cuffs with her name on them, and for the past year, this set has hung on my door.  I see them when I go out, and come in. It has been a constant reminder, of what I have went thru.  Consistent reminder to pray too before I leave the house .

I have kept my back doors covered, my windows covered, not allowing anyone to come up and able to look into my home.  If your at my door, you would not be able to see into my home. It is a protective thing for me.

GOD / YHWH told me to bring those handcuffs to the conference, and I was to 'wear' them as jewelry  on the day of the summit.  I obeyed.  They were wrapped around my left wrist.  I share them as I spoke and gave my testimony. The summit lasted all day....  Testimony from  midwives, doctors who have been persecuted  a panel of attorneys from all over-even other countries who have worked for the basic human rights of people were there.  It was a humbling honor to have been asked and to participate in this discussion.

Myself on the panel, The woman to my left, at the microphone is Robbie Davis-Floyd, she is not on the panel but led the discussion.  I will not show the other panel members to protect them...

GOD has a bigger plan.  Remember, a year before I was arrested, HE told me I would be arrested-I asked him no, I would rather not, but said I would obey HIM.  I could have stopped then.  I could have moved away-like to a state where I can get that state license, (example in Virginia I hold a license from the state medical board-yes really!) But GOD /YHWH has a bigger plan and I am to be involved in that.

SO with the handcuffs----Once the summit was over, HE told me that Jan was to remove them, (Jan T. is the one who began Midwifery Today, and is so wonderful and giving, a real friend. )  and I was to leave them with her.  Again, I obeyed- obedience is important.   I do not need to know the reasons-I just need to obey.    It helped to continue the flow of tears for me, and also the healing.  I was allowing the freedom that HE had done for me, even with this arrest-to begin working in my heart.

Jan Tritten and Myself, holding the removed hand cuffs. 

Now tonight, at the Christian Midwives meeting, again, healing....My friend Brenda who has also been arrested, we were so blessed tonight.  As well as others who have went thru this.  Beautiful group of women, singing...... worshiping YHWH and HIS SON and all they have done for us...

Praising and worshiping HIM in song, dance, prayer, HE blessed me with more healing tears...

I will post this now....
and for now, perhaps I can truly sleep peacefully for the first time in a long time....

There is healing....